Suck it up....be a man

I have always felt that inspite of doing the right things repeatedly, I have not been as successful as I would have wanted to be. For instance, our company had this client, who did not want to honor his purchase order. I worked real hard to make the project happen in hopes that he may give us some big volume business soon and I may get some bonus. Talking about the job, I still cannot believe that I talked myself into an unpaid intern for three months, several nights of burning the midnight oil, 9-10 hour work days, some night outs at the office and riding a bike for atleast 20 miles a day to finally get a full time job that pays slightly more than 50K. Well I do say that in this time of recession, I somehow got a job. But, honestly man I expected something more after a masters with thesis. Talking about education, I cannot say enough of my disastrous undergrad, where inspite of my best efforts to learn understand and try to be on top of what I was trying to do, I just managed to be above average. The disappointment of ending up with only 82% in my twelfth final exams despite working my ass off the whole year and the fact that I could not even manage a 90% in my tenth despite a whole lot of hard work all around the year still haunts me.

I think I know the solution to this problem. I have to suck it up and be a man. I don't think life has been fair to me all the time. The key is I have to keep up with the hard work and keep making the right decisions. This way I give myself one more chance to be all that I wanted to be. I gave myself a chance by taking up the unpaid intern offer. I made the right decision to accept the stress and work hard during my internship. This helped me get the full time offer. Maybe I have given myself one more chance.......